It’s not that hard to say goodbye. It does still feel like you owe me something, like the relationship felt so one-sided. I feel like I deserve something in return for all of the lost time, the lost money, the constant occupation of my mind, my thoughts. You stole time from my family, you stole my purpose and my presence, making me unavailable to my loved ones. You don’t ever give anything back, and even if it seems like you do once in awhile, it still doesn’t feel good, I pray that I never experience your heart ache another day in my life…even another hour or minute. It’s not that hard to say goodbye, because you are a lie. It’s not that hard to say goodbye, because I like to be in control of my mind, and you took that over and made me do things I’m not proud of. When I spend time away from you, I can see how toxic you are. I pray to never allow that toxicity in my life again. I have too many important people in my life to let you steal anymore time from me. This is it, this is goodbye. The 24 hours I have in front of me are the most important, and I refuse to waste them with you.
